I started Product Girl almost 11 years ago because I was passionate about beauty products. Back then I didn’t have much going for me, I was a sad and lonely person for a very long time. Buying a new lipstick or perfume made me feel better about myself so I filled a void by sharing my passion with others on the internet. When I had nothing else going for me, I would come home from a long day at work and write about lipstick. I quickly discovered that I really enjoyed blogging about my passion and it began to consume me. This blog led to so many great things and experiences. I’ve been fortunate to meet so many amazing people over the years and I’ve learned so much along the way.
Almost five years ago I was forced to give up this blog in exchange for the promise of my dream job. I agreed to this because the alternative was giving up said dream job. I put someone else in charge and let her lead the way, she was someone I trusted and who’s voice I admired greatly. When the dream job crashed and burned, I’ve touched on this a little bit in the past, I tried to take the lead again but I was in such a deep depression that I could barely get out of bed. When the person I trusted decided to go out on her own, that was a blow that took me awhile to recover from. Because of all of this, this blog represented what was wrong in my life for the last few years. I couldn’t make this work and I was very hard on myself about it so I let it die.
When the dream job was gone and the passion I once felt faded, I dwelled on what once was for a long time, a couple years really. I’m always hard on myself so it took me awhile to get over my regret for the decisions I made. I was finding that the things that brought me joy didn’t have the same allure for me as they once did. That rush to get my hands on the latest issue of Nail It or curiosity about what was new in stores was no longer there. I tried to get back into the swing of things but my heart wasn’t in it anymore. What was once something I did out of love and to fill a void in my life, no longer worked for me so I let this blog just sit here and collect “dust”.
One day I adopted a new attitude; I was going to fake it until I “made it”. I started filling that void with other things, I became more outgoing and social. Eventually I didn’t have to fake it anymore and that smile I would turn on in public that hid everything I was feeling, began appearing without any effort… I didn’t have to hide my feelings anymore. My shyness gave way to a new found confidence, one I brought with me when I started dating again after a long, self imposed hiatus.
There were some bumps in the road but now I’m at a point in my life where I’m finally happy. I’m in love with an amazing man who supports me and it has made me think about things in a new light, a more positive light for sure. I’m finding myself wanting to express myself more, wanting to write about the beautiful girly things that brought me joy all those years ago. Only now I’ll be coming from a different, much happier place…a place in my life that I’m really excited about right now.
The moral of this story is that I’m bringing Product Girl back. I’m going to start slow, get back to basics and write about the things I’ve truly been enjoying and want to share with all of you. I want to try to get back to my beauty blogging roots. I’m not going to bring you swatches, that is all being done by better bloggers, but what I want to do is have a conversation with you. At its core, beauty products are fun and empowering, that’s what I want to get back to. Who doesn’t feel like a badass when their eyeliner game is on point? 😉
I started gathering all my necessities again; camera, lights, props and the like, so it won’t be too long now. I have a lot of lost time to make up for (ha-ha, get it? 🙂 ), a lot of ground to re-gain but I’m up for the challenge and excited for what’s ahead. I hope you’ll come back for more. 🙂